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Weight Loss & Loneliness…

So I’ve been on this journey now for around 2 years, though I guess in reality it has been most of my life, years of back and forth between being somewhat healthy and absolutely not at all. Losing weight, getting fit and healthy is an exciting change but also a lonely time, infact I’ve never really truly felt loneliness quite like it. To really want to change yourself requires dedication, it requires compromise and time; not just to exercise but to plan and prep your food, to educate yourself and to rally motivation by yourself, for yourself. I’m not going to lie to you, it’s not easy, there is no magic fix, you have to want it and then do it.

Now what I wasn’t prepared for is the consequences of weight loss; ok that sounds silly, like yes I knew my bank account would take a hit with gym fees, workout wear and new clothes to fit my shrinking self, I expected people to notice and give me compliments (I’m getting better at receiving them, though I still cringe a little inside), what I mean is… skin. Lordy there is so much spare skin. Gross. Stretching your body over time, has an effect, the elasticity your skin has wears over time, it doesn’t just snap back as you’d like or maybe think it would. I dreamed of wearing a bikini on holiday or a dress with no sleeves to a friend’s wedding, embracing summer finally and showing off my ‘new’ figure. But when I look at myself, I know that won’t happen just yet. It’s a cruel world when you work so hard for something and it finds another way to spite you. I want to be happy with how I look, I want to feel proud that I’ve turned it all around, I want to feel normal and not like the ‘fat friend’ but it’s a struggle… one I know I’ll overcome eventually (once I’ve saved for the surgery haha).

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Before…

So ok, this blog is meant to be about weight loss only but I feel maybe this will resonate with a few people so here goes. It’s a weird time in my life in general, most of my friends, I guess what you’d traditionally call your ‘support system’ have their own lives, they have partners (or husbands), their own homes, careers and perhaps even children, they don’t live in the city but the suburbs, a night out requires weeks of advance planning not just a shall we go for one drink job. We speak most days (ok ok we send a lot of memes via whatsapp), we catch-up when we can, but naturally this is all very high level conversation, in that we discuss what’s current, who’s doing what and life in sweeping motions.

Moving from London back to Birmingham was a culture shock, gone were the after work drinks, the weekly pub quizzes and the 4am nightbus home, in fact most weeknight’s without the luxury of the last tube were pretty boring. It’s a different way of life here, one where people want to get back to their homes, their families and children, and mid-week drinking isn’t the done thing. This has without a doubt aided my fat to fit progression, but it’s been tough to really come to terms with. Not one to sit around I have made sure I am intensely busy; I run a social action project helping the homeless, I volunteer my marketing expertise outside of the office, I play netball, I run, I work out, I have a full diary of activities, when it’s the football season I go to every game but being busy I’ve figured out doesn’t actually make you feel any less lonely.

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Like how do you even make new friends at 26. I had these visions in my head, like I’ll join a gym in town, and go to zumba, one day they’ll be a girl similar age and I’ll go ‘hey, nice leggings’ or something equally harmless and suddenly we’d be grabbing a coffee after our class and ‘alright, yeah you’re normal, let’s be friends’. In reality a stranger talking to strangers is viewed as a bit creepy, we’re all guilty of it, we want to be left alone, someone speaks to us on the train or the bus and we’re wondering when to put our headphones in.

What I’m learning from my 20s is that I can have all the confidence in the world with my passion, career, myself, and it can still be immensely lonely. I think it is an internal conflict of sorts as I’m pretty sure most people who know me would think I’m very happy, I always smile, I tell a lot of jokes, I’ve always been confident – first one on the dancefloor, last one off it kinda gal. By my late 20s I imagined I’d be happy with myself, have a career I’m proud of (this bit is fine fyi it’s not all doom and gloom), be settled not just in geographical terms but in love and in life. Being as I’m now in my mid 20s I’ve a lot of groundwork to do to catch up and sometimes it can feel like you’re making all the progress in the world but getting nowhere at the same time.

Now that was all very melancholy stuff, but I think it’s quite important to have a grasp of reality, that you know maybe these haven’t been the best years of my life, but instead a transition period. It’s ok to admit you’re lonely and to talk about it, openly; in a world where we are all constantly interconnected it can be quite overwhelming to have an honest face to face conversation with someone about something you’re struggling with, I’ve not managed that yet. But like I said right at the start, it’s a journey, I might not know where I’m going but I’m sure I’ll get there, because one thing I have learnt these past couple of years is believing in yourself is the foundation for happiness.

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Starting over…

Ok hands up… I lost my way a little. In a summer of weddings, celebrations, travel, new babies and new friends, my food choices got richer while I got poorer. I drank Raspberitas (and ate my entire body weight twice) by the pool in LA, piled my plate high with cheese and meat in Tuscany and ate far too many baguettes in Lyon… and it was fantastic.

However I didn’t feel fantastic come the 1st September, I felt tired and bloated. So I’ve signed myself up for a 6 Week Body Transformation… the nutritional plan is strict (there’s no room for Gin), and the workouts leave you wobbling all the way home, but 1 week & 9lbs down and I’m almost back to my pre-summer weight. I feel more energetic, my jeans are looser and most of all I’m enjoying it…

To Be Continued.

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Great Birmingham Run 2016

Wow sorry guys, sometimes life just gets on top.

Let me bring you up to speed. Since losing weight I’ve been naturally feeling a bit healthier, but looks can be deceiving, some of my friends are slim and slender and can’t walk up the stairs without breaking a sweat. I want to be fit. Not in ‘damn girl’ kind of way (though compliments are always appreciated) but in a ‘damn  I feel good’ sense.

I’ve been therefore working on building my fitness, cutting my body fat percentage and generally getting stronger and leaner. I’ve been spending a lot less time on cardio and more time in the weights section. It might look scary, it might be full of pumped up guys, maybe the mirrors freak you out a little but my gosh is it worth it. I’ve decided not to look at the scales for a while… so I can’t really tell give you an update on that. I’ve been concentrating on how I feel and how I look, rather than those little numbers followed by the kg/llb sign. If you want some ideas for workouts try these guys…

Emily Skye – https://www.emilyskye.com/ (her workouts can be found on her facebook/twitter/insta streams)

Clean Eating Alice – https://www.instagram.com/clean_eating_alice (super easy to follow workouts)

Rob & Ben @ TEG – https://traineatgain.com/ (look at the free stuff and then put together your own workout)

I signed up to the Great Birmingham Run back in January – as I needed a challenge. It came round really quickly… before the race (10k in total) – the furthest I’d ran was 6k. I’d been using an app on my phone from Zen Labs – Couch to 10k (http://www.zenlabsfitness.com/) but being the busy person I am, I’d been forgetting to track everything. Still it was a good marker.

Mostly I spent my time doing interval training – 1 min run 1 min walk, 90 seconds run, 1 min walk, 90 seconds run, 30 seconds walk etc. Some days I’d get carried away – I mostly blame Kano for that (I mean you can’t slow down when New Banger drops), and run further and harder, but never really beyond 5/6k.

Sunday just gone was race day, I was nervous, I felt a bit sick, could I do it? Could I run that far? What if I needed to stop? The first 5 minutes were the hardest by far, there’s a lot of people running at the same time, it’s tricky to pace yourself into your own race. However soon I was at 3k and it was going just fine. I managed 5k in 43 mins – fairly happy with that. 6k came and went, then oh my life, the hills, 2k of uphill running. The biggest incline I’d previously run at was 2.5% on the treadmill… I was unprepared, but I couldn’t stop now. Luckily I had a solid playlist, also huge thanks to the nice runners who patted me on the back and told me to keep going. The thing is with races/runs/events like this, part of your effort is adrenaline, the combined effort of the entire participant pack as a whole really does drive you further. Oh and when people have signs like ‘Pain now, Prosecco later’, yeah that helps.

I finished the race in 1hr 43 mins officially (I stopped at 4k for a toilet break – though I kept jogging on the spot in the queue out of fear my legs would seize up haha) so my iPod reckons I did it in 1hr 34mins. Is that good? It’s flipping fantastic for me. I’ve never run that far before in my life. I didn’t stop. I won my own race. So yes my personal best is pretty high in comparison to others, but I’m already looking forward to the next one, and shaving some time off.

Unfortunately my gym is shut for refurbishment today… guess I’ll have a little break till tomorrow, when the journey to fitness continues. Until next time…

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Kerry – x

 

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Happy New Year…

Ok so I’m borderline (definitely) a little too late for a Happy New Year post but let’s roll with it.

I went to the gym on December 28th… I’d put on a 1lb over Christmas. Wonderful. Surprising but wonderful. I went to the gym on January 5th… 6 more lbs. Not so great. But as I mentioned before Christmas, life would be very boring if you didn’t let yourself indulge every now and again (plus cheese taste far too good to avoid).

I had a few occasions in January (I’m not one of those Dry January/let’s stay in and snuggle kind of gals)… we drank, we ate, but we danced too… I didn’t gain or lose any more lbs. The gym warned them off. But I was a little nervous about my upcoming trip to Dubai. I want to look glamourous… not bloaty. So I decided to do the Clean 9 again. Not only is it a great cleanse, with the added bonus of weight loss, but it really gives you a glow.

I’ll do another post when I have a little more time about my second experience of the Clean 9. But in summary I started 61 pounds down and finished 73 pounds down. I have more energy, my skin is glowing and having previewed a new shirt dress to the office yesterday my confidence has been boosted.

Did you know 73 pounds is the same as 44 bottles of wine? Well now you do… (I use ilostwhat.com for all comparisons – fabulous little site).

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Kerry xox

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5lbs.

It’s Christmas… there’s a party to go to every night, a glass of wine to share with friends every lunchtime and there’s boards and boards of cheese just waiting to be devoured. Trying to shift these last 5lbs towards my 70lbs by Christmas goal is pretty damn  hard. I’ve mostly resisted the temptations so far; I’ve let my Niece open my advent calendar, I’ve offered to drive to avoid the booze, and I’m definitely counting battling through the bullring in the pursuit of those elusive final gifts as extra exercise.

The good news is even though the scales don’t seem to be budging at the moment, I’m noticing some changes in my body itself. It’s shapelier (is that a word?) than before, my waist is more defined, and my legs are less tree trunky than before. I’m still going to the gym, making the most of my PT sessions, and it seems to be paying off. Almost time for another new pair of jeans I think.

Most pleasing is the fact I can finally do my jacket up, rather than having it open.

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Enjoy yourself this Christmas… a life where you’re 100% good all of the time, would be awfully boring after all. See you all in January xox

 

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Quick Circuit Workout At Home

So I realise not everyone might be able to afford a PT or want to join a gym – that’s cool. Here’s a super quick routine you can complete at home (or in the park is fun – just make sure there’s steps). I adapted it myself, from some of my preferred exercises*. It’s not too intense, just a good 30 minutes of exercise to get your heart rate up a little, make it sweat baby. Where possible I’ve added a YouTube link for you to see the exercise in action – YouTube is wonderful by the way – personally a big fan of Emily Skye (thanks to my cousin).

Warm-up 5 minutes.

Run up the stairs as quick as you can and walk down at a steady pace x 30 seconds.

Burpees (go for whichever style you feel most comfortable with – I do intermediate) – use the bottom step to support yourself if you need x 30 seconds.

30 seconds rest.

Repeat 3 times.

Rest for a minute.

Phase 1 Circuit 10 minutes:

Step-ups 1st step (step up onto the first step with your leading foot, then the other so both feet are on the step, then step down with one foot then the other so both feet are on the bottom of the stairs) x 30 seconds

Press-ups – (if you can’t do full leg extension, then cross your legs, and press from your knees, suck your stomach in so it’s tight) x 30 seconds

Step-ups 2nd step (same as above but reach your leg up to the second step – steady yourself into a pace which is manageable) x 30 seconds

Plank – Rest on your forearms, in a planking position. Hold it for 30 seconds. Keep your bum down, don’t bend your knees.

30 seconds rest

Repeat 4 times

Rest for minute.

Phase 2 Circuit 10 minutes

Russian Twists
x 30 seconds

Grab a 2lt bottle of pop or a dumbbell if you have one, sit down on the floor – middle of the lounge is fine, make sure your feet are on the ground to begin, slightly spread legs – the V position, lean back, raise your feet off the ground, until you feel the pull in your stomach, suck it in. Holding your chosen prop to you chest twist your torso side to side, touch the floor space with your bottle of dumbbell. Don’t let your feet touch the ground.

Lower Leg Raises
x 10 full raises

Lie on your back, extend your arms above your head (this is personal preference you can have them alongside your body) and stretch your legs out – raise your legs to the ceiling, try not bend your knees during, keep your legs together, slowly lower them back towards the floor – much harder than it sounds, you’ll definitely feel it in your core.

Mountain Climbers
x 30 seconds

Flip over onto your front, get into a press up position, raise your knee towards your chest – one leg at a time.

Squats 
x 20 full squats

Get into squat position (watch the video – you want to make sure you’re doing it right) – go as low as you can – squeeze yourself into your heels – it’ll make more sense once you give it a try. No rush on this one, concentrate on getting the squat right.

30 Seconds Rest.

Repeat 4 times.

Rest for 1 minute.

Stretch – 3-5 minutes

I do something very similar to this – ‘How to stretch’

Enjoy.

*I am not a personal trainer, I do not have a degree in sports science, I just want to look better and feel good – I cannot promise lbs in weight loss or muscle mass increases nor would I want to. But feel free to give it a go, in my opinion it works.

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Recipe: Courgette Pizza

So while I was doing the Clean 9 I thought I’d try out some new recipes. I used to love cooking from scratch, but guess I got lazy and convenience took over, I’d find myself eating similar things every week, and tricking myself into thinking they were ‘healthy’ – I mean if you have brown pasta then it doesn’t matter how much cheese you stick on it right? Erm. Wrong. I’ve always loved courgettes, so when I came across a ‘Zucchini Pizza’ recipe on Pinterest, I had to give it a try. Tastes really yum and it’s incredibly easy and quick too – bonus! Here’s the recipe:

1x large courgette
60g of Reduced fat cheddar (I’ve since discovered if you use Parmesan the pizza base is actually even better)
1x egg

Grate the courgette. Leave it in a sieve in 10 mins to drain. Then you need to remove all the excess water. I kinda half mashed it bare hands, realised I was getting nowhere, scooped it into a clean tea towel and squeezed and squeezed till the towel went green…

Pop your dry courgette into a bowl.

Add the egg and cheese. Mix it up.

Spread onto a baking paper lined baking tray (I omitted the paper first time, it got a bit stuck…)

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Bake for 8 mins at 200.

I then mashed some salad tomatoes and simmered them into a sauce to use as the topping.

The base and sauce is 280 cals.

Then add your toppings.

I went for peppers, onions and 4x slimming world meatballs – cut up. Oh and a sprinkle of cheese (did I mention I love cheese?)

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570cals in total for the whole thing. That’s 30 cals for left for a squirt of ketchup and there you go 600 calories of deliciousness.

Hope you enjoy.

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50 Pounds Down

Another small but exciting victory. 50 Pounds down now.

I use www.ilostwhat.com as a fun way to track my weight loss. Apparently 50 pounds is the same as small bail of hay – who knew?

I’m keeping to a steady rate of around 2.5lbs a week at the moment. I’m still using the Forever Lite Ultra shake – I mix it up and have 2 shakes and 1 600 cal meal on my rest days, and 1 shake, 1 600 cal meal and 1 450 cal meal on my activity days. I take the Aloe Gel every morning, when I don’t I feel sluggish so it definitely packs a boost.

A colleague said to me the other day ‘You just look better…’ I was like oh thanks, erm what does that mean? She said my face looked a lot slimmer. So I went back to look at some past photos and she has a very good point.

So erm here’s my face for the last 6 months or so…

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The last one is a bit dark – I apologise. I guess she’s right though.

Kerry — x

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40 Pounds Down

Just a quick post today…. I am now 40 pounds down. Huge thanks to the Clean 9 for a massive boost in getting me back on track. I can tick this one of my list. Next stop 70 pounds down for Christmas. Bring it on.

The left picture is from April and the right picture is from today. Feeling much healthier. A long way to go, but well on the way.

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Kerry —x

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Joining A Gym

I’ve spent the last 2 weeks trying out various gyms, with different free passes – mostly found on the web. Here’s some of my favourites:

Nuffield Health – Free 1 Day Pass

Fitness First – Free 1 Day Pass 

LA Fitness – Free 1 Day Pass 

In the end however I opted for ‘The Gym’ – it’s on the high street in the City Centre, just opposite the big M&S. There was no joining fee and it costs just £12.99 a month, with no contract. The gym itself is huge, it has two floors, all the machines you need, and a huge studio. However it has no luxuries – no steam room, no pool, no sauna, just pure and simple gym equipment. I worked out even if I manage to go just once a week it will cost me around £3.25 – a bargain. If I go twice a week, it’s ridiculously cheap.

I know gyms can be daunting when you’re worried about your size, but everyone is there with similar goals. To maintain a fit and healthy lifestyle, to lose weight or get stronger. Don’t be afraid to give it a go. If it’s not for you then you might be interested in this new initiative from Coca-Cola Life – Parklives – loads of free activities in parks around the area. Anything from Tai Chi to Buggy Bootcamp to 5k training. Take a look.

Kerry —x

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